Bye Grandpa Norton
I Love You




I'm so depressed. I went to see him on 11/20/09 cause my mom forced me to. The thing is that i'm glad that she did because the night after he died at 3 am exactly 2 months before my birthday. I've been crying, having panic attacks, and i can't sleep at night. I don't know what i'm going to do every two weeks cause i went to see him every two weeks and now i can't. I was so close to him and now i can't be now all i can do is miss him. What am i going to do with out him in my life. I'll never forget how him and jeremy used to have their little arguements. It's going to kill me seeing mom crying all the time. It hurts Knowing that he is gone. It's going to bother me having to be in the front of the casket in the row at the wake. I have no idea how i'm going to handle it. Now both moms parents are gone and they were the only grandparents i had left that i knew. Because i don't know my grandparents on my fathers side cz i don't know who my father is. Seeing my family all upset like this hurts really bad. All these people are trying to help but no matter how much people say that it's going to be okay it's not. Nothing anyone says is going to make him come back. He's gone and i'm just going to just have to accept that he is gone. At least i got to see him once before he died. Because watching him taking his last breath like mom had to would tear me up inside.